So this is what it feels like to turn away from everything you've been working for (on the outside) for the past years, to set fire to a path that guarantees you success, prestige, and "meaning" - the world. In some ways, perhaps I've just torched my future in the eyes of most people, but no matter what happens, I'll always look back and be proud of myself for the courage I had to do this.
I just withdrew from medical school. Wish me luck please, because I'm definitely going to need it.